If this is what I wanted...why am I so nervous?

[CrazyKell]

Since I moved back from England I've been staying at my parents until I was more secure in a job and could afford to move out.

I've been toying with the idea of buying a small house but I don't feel ready financially (I've really been taking steps to get that side of things in order).

I've seen some absolute DUMPY apartments and figured the search would take quite a while.

Quite surprisingly I found a place and they have offered it to me. I accepted.

So why am I so nervous/anxious/feel as if I want to wait?

I'm really bummed I can't buy a house right now. Well...I guess I could but it would put me in a situation financially that I don't want to be in (house poor). I don't want to be stretched too far and would like to live quite comfortably.

I just can't shake this feeling even though I loved the apartment.