I miss you already.

[Rangerscott]

I was debating on whether or not to post this, but I consider ALL of you guys my friends, even pedo Tigger and a-hole Trip. My father called me a few hours ago and gave me the news that my grandpa died today. It really hurts to type right now. I'm not good with sadness or anger so I tend to display them wrong. I hate to cry but typing this is helping me to let it out. I knew this day would come but I was hoping he and I would be older, but that is selfish of me to say since he lived most of his life with diabetes and several heart attacks and bypasses. He was a good man and laughed all the time. He was the grandpa I was around the most; I grew up most of my life around him and grandma. He had a heart attack earlier this year and the docs couldn't do anything to help him that time. He's add so many stints and he's exceeded amount of bypasses I believe. They said it would just have to be medication from now on.

I really don't know what grandma is going to do now. Being alone at home and not having her husband in bed next to her. I don't know what it feels like to lose someone that close, but it hurts just to think about it. I don't live in the same city as they do anymore. I was there this weekend. My father and I had dinner with them and he was just fine. Acted like his usual self with no worries at all. My grandma has seen him at his worse every time, but if she wasn't there, then he may have been gone a long time ago.


I'm leaving tomorrow and don't know when I'll be back. This is part of life, but this is the part that hurts the most.