How long will this last?

[Archren]

Really, I think a biiiiiiig factor is the pain meds. Opiates work on your emotions the same way they do pain - the feeling is still vaguely there, you just don't care.

[Ninjakel]

I agree with Carolina. 100%

[azoomm]

Do I need to beat the *give a shit* back into you??

[ericr]

I think since you had a close call that you realized that a lot of those little things are inconsiquential to "living". Obviously you don't want to carry it too far but I think you'll spend more time enjoying life and less worrying about little shit that don't really matter now

Could be a good thing ya know

[Adeptus_Minor]

You had me at paper towels...

But seriously... I agree that the drugs may be affecting it, but also that the accident itself might have altered your perception.
You represent yourself as one who always tries to maintain control of her environment, yet the accident and hospital stay took that control away from you.
Some control freaks break down when that happens, you seem to be rolling with it.
I'd say that's a good thing.

[the chi]

Originally Posted by Adeptus_Minor

You had me at paper towels...

But seriously... I agree that the drugs may be affecting it, but also that the accident itself might have altered your perception.
You represent yourself as one who always tries to maintain control of her environment, yet the accident and hospital stay took that control away from you.
Some control freaks break down when that happens, you seem to be rolling with it.
I'd say that's a good thing.

Im with this guy. I think the biggst thing is while not even realizing it, you lived through an ordeal that could have cost your life and perhaps are unconsciously realizing that the "small stuff" isnt that big a deal. Is not having paper towels worth a heart attack?

We all go though phases like this in our lives, on different scales, sometimes we revert for awhile, then remember not to "sweat the small stuff" again, and repeat the patterns throughout life. Try to enjoy your new sense of freedom, its liberating right?

[Porkchop]

Triggers Heather, triggers. Right now you might not care about thing little things cause your more worried about yourself. But damnit, when the time comes that your better and stop worring about yourself...... I dont want to be around when that first cat is scratching the carpet, or you spill some kool-aid and you are out of paper towels.....

Like everybody else has said, drugs are helping that too.

[HurricaneHeather]

The only time I take pain meds is right before bed. The rest of the day I am narcotic free

Seriously, I am loving this right now. In truth, I have never had to deal with anything traumatic before and that could be why I've always been so uptight....because I never have had to really deal with anything

I told my husband that I really am trying to make this into something that changes my life for the better. I don't have the energy to spend on depression and stress because I am just happy to be here, to be home, to be walking(kinda) and to have family and friends to take really good care of me.

But I think collectively everyone is a little right. I am glad I don't care....if I did my ddays of sitting around the house not being able to get up to stop the cat from tearing up the carpet and not being able to go buy paper towels would probably hve driven me insame already

I think I am going to just use this as my chance to quit being so uptight...I think I can dig it

My anthem right now is 'Can't Stop Me Now' by Queen.

[Particle Man]

sounds like you just have larger stuff on your mind... like being ALIVE.

[MissHell]

Originally Posted by Particle Man

sounds like you just have larger stuff on your mind... like being ALIVE.

Amen to that!